"The Pursuit of Happiness"

Today was beautiful. I don't even remember what it looked like outside? Was it cloudy? Sunny? Was it raining? Doesn't matter it was beautiful. A friend seemed to be asking me questions... or maybe she was just telling me she was puzzled. I do not have the answers she was looking for, but, oh, how I wish I did. I want to be able to tell everyone that it will be alright. When? Right now? Nothing seems alright. We watched "The Pursuit of Happyness". It had a really good ending. I was crying throughout the whole thing. I was thinking "God please don't take my lifestyle away." I even know that I don't deserve it. What if He did? What if I wake up tomorrow and somewhere over the course of the night, He's decided I don't need it anymore. Then I have to start "practicing what I preach." "Everything will be alright, right now." He's already instructed me to not worry about tomorrow, because today has enough worries of it's own.
I went to my first Wednesday night prayer meeting at Wapato. Just a few of us. We were praying for you... you don't have a name, but we prayed anyway. Lord, what should I be telling people. What if I told them I forgive them 70 x 7? What if... What if I told them that You love them. I'll just start off with basics. Jesus loves you, immeasurably. While I was watching that movie, I kept thinking about the title. In the movie Chris (Will Smith) said something about the pursuit of happiness is just a pursuit. I don't know. I'm happy. I don't feel like it's unattainable. Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. I do not have the right to be happy. If I am unhappy, I can't sue anyone. I have the right to pursue happiness. How miserable would I be if I never attained happiness?
Praise You Lord! ThankYou for making me who You want. You make me want to be happy, and so I am.
I asked the question in my head tonight, "how great Thou art?" I answered it the same way, "how great Thou art!"
Lord, I want to seek Your face. At the end of every day, Lord, I want to feel like I've spent all day with You. Help me focus, Lord, like my friend.