My Mission

I don't know Wapato. Am I the only one experiencing a sleepless night. That was unexpected news. Where were the flashing red lights? The light went from green to red. While Pastor Eric was giving the announcement, in my head I just heard myself saying, "I'm behind you." Only I'm still waiting for the shock to wear off. 7-7-07... I thought for some reason that there would be only good surprises. This is not. I will pray for the strength of Pete and Amy. I do hope that Wapato will find a new pastor, but only because I will worry about the Rusaw's.
I was also laying in bed wondering about my mission in my home as mother and homemaker. Why doesn't it seem to work for me. Then it hit me. I need to spend way more time in my home. I need to make sure that everything is running smoothly. My marriage needs to be number one. God has placed me here to help my Tony. My son needs to be as important. There are so many things that I've failed to teach him. My home has to be clean, meals need to be fixed, and order must be found. Here's what I have to do:
Stop going places with my friends.
Stop the myspace insanity.
It is a very small thing to ask of me, but I am a very social person. I feel like this is where God wants to change me. In order for me to be able to help others, I have to be able to help my family first. If my house is not clean when my husband gets home from work, then we have disagreements. James needs to be on a schedule. I need to be on a schedule. My yard needs more work, my chores need more work. The laundry is dirty. The sink is always filled with dishes. I am in need of FlyLady. I live in CHAOS (flylady's term) Can't Have Anyone Over Syndrome. I'll let you know how it goes in one month. So goodbye myspace, and goodbye tv. Hello Christian cleaning music! Hello Flylady!
I want God's will to be done. Even when it means that things won't go the way I wanted or planned.