Crowd Follower to Follower of Christ

I was just washing the dishes, I do my best thinking here, when I thought about speaking to Shelli at church. She reminds me of my confirmation sponsor from 8th grade. (*Note* confirmation is a catholic thing: hook, line, and sinker.) Shelli said that she never did the confirmation, because she didn't feel it was for her.
This got me thinkin'. I don't know if it was for me, I was just following the crowd. I've always followed the crowd. My first 19 years, I didn't hang out with the unpopular crowd, because the popular ones didn't approve. This was so incredibly stupid, but I wouldn't reallize this until my adult years. Anywho, I've followed lots of crowds, never sticking to a certain one, but being friends with as many people who would accept me, for acting like they did. I was friends with the "wanna-be-hippies", the preps, the smart people, the smokers, and the "wanna-be-thugs". I never had a certain taste for any of these groups, but they accepted me for being fake. I bet they knew I was a fraud. Wow, I was a fraud! I'ld never be able to admit that before.
Now, I don't have to follow a crowd, because Nathalie has an identity. I have been transformed from the crowd follower to a follower of Christ!
Hallelujah!
Agape,
Nathalie

This is a brief blog, mainly because I can't hold a thought for more than a second. I try my hardest to make it coherent.