Beautiful Love

Here I am, pregnant again. Why on earth do I have to be so emotional? Granted I understand it's hormones, but every single pregnancy. I love a good cry, don't get me wrong, but if they are sad cries...
I gave away my dog, Oreo, to an older gentleman. He brought her to his home, and the landlord said he couldn't keep her. He took her to a "friends of animals organization" and she was transferred back to Portland. I've been getting phone calls from the humane society to see if I lost my dog. So I recollect the story. I hung up the phone crying, I'll never see her again. That makes me wonder if "All dogs go to heaven." She is a very sweet dog, and I shared a lot of good times with her on walks or just laying in the hammock in the backyard. I miss her so much right now, but I'm so glad that the humane society will find her a good home.
Tony, James, and I went on a walk to the video story and then up to Dutch Brothers. We ran into Kevin and Janet from church and Kevin overheard Tony talking about me being pregnant at work. I told them yes, and I'ld probably announce it at church tonight. We left the video store and Tony asked me if I was sure I was pregnant. Ok, yes it's a little hard to believe... I'm not showing, and we haven't been to our first o.b. abbointment yet. I remember what pregancy feels like, and I've got all of the symptoms plus a positive pregnancy test. But I don't need to prove anything to anyone just yet. The only reason I even announced this pregnancy so early is because I didn't want to hide anything because of the fear of a miscarriage. I would rather have people praying and petitioning the ever so faithful Jesus Christ for a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby. This made me think about my miscarriage. My baby's days were numbered before the baby was ever conceived. God's ways are so different from my own, but I have total faith that they are much greater than mine. So my baby who's with our Heavenly Father that I miscarried 3 years ago, September 9 is well taken care of. What's even greater, I'll see him/her. What a beautiful reunion. I can say I held you in my tummy for 11 weeks, but in my heart forever. God is amazing. I love you, Lord!