Rely on Jesus (He does it all!)

I've been blogging all day in my head, wishing I had paper and pen. I thought about the footsteps poem, which I always liked knowing that during the hard times Jesus carried me. Then I had this reallization, now that I know what this walk with Him is, that some of the time I just need to let myself be carried. When there is something that I want to do or say, sometimes it's best when nothing is done at all. It's been a lesson, (I'm still learning) when to shut my mouth. When the words flowing from my tongue, are not the right words for the moment. I had another lesson like that at 10 am and then again this evening. Will I ever get it? Oh, I'm sure I will, but in His timing. Is there anything I can do to make it happen quicker? Well every living thing needs time to grow.
It was a rough day. Tony and I were having a great morning together, and then all of a sudden a touchy issue came up, and my feelings were hurt. Those stupid feelings. I can't trust 'em. That ruined about 1-2 hours. I've been trying to live a life that is pleasing to Jesus. I feel like I fail most of the time. Could it be that my efforts, in and of myself, are incomplete? That would make a lot of sense. I see a need to begin my day with prayer and end my day with gratitude. I hope the Lord will help me seek Him. I know that my days are hard without Him. I bet my days would run like a well oiled machine if I asked for His guidance with my daily problems.
I've been reading this book called "Creative Correction" that I checked out at the library. It's got some really godly ideas for teaching children right from wrong. I'll probably buy the book so that I can have my own reference for tough times in training. I've been more anxious than I ought to when I think about James growing up. I'm so worried that he will act like I did. I don't want him to be disrespectful, and I don't want him to grow up in fear. He already will have a better start than I did, hopefully, if he will gain an interest in AWANA or in Sunday school, or if he asks Jesus to be his Lord and Savior early on. Well, time to slip back to bed and pray for a good nights sleep.
Night, night everyone.